Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Music

I love listening to music, and I really love music with good lyrics. I think growing up a lyrical dancer has given me a love for music different than many other people and I know any dancer would agree that you appreciate music in a different way than non-dancers. While driving home to my parents house today, I put my new cd into my cd player. Some of the songs lyrics really touch me, and then some other songs that every time I listen to them, they take me to a different place.

1. 'Dear Mr. President' by Pink
"What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away. And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay."

2. 'Not Ready to Make Nice' by The Dixie Chicks
"I made my bed and I sleep like a baby with no regrets and I don't mind saying its a sad sad story when a mother will teach daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger and how in the world can the words that I said send somebody so over the edge that they me a letter saying that I'd better shut up and sing or my life with be over."

3. 'Hear You Me' by Jimmy Eat World
"What would you think of me now? So lucky, so strong, so proud. I never said thank you for that. Now I'll never have a chance."
When I hear this song, so much comes to mind. People I've lost along the way, either from death or just friendships that have drifted away, and how they don't get to see the person I've become.

I'm also a One Tree Hill junky and they play this song in the background while one of the characters says this following quote..
"Tragedies happen. What are you going to do, give up, quit. No. When your heart breaks you have to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive because you are and that pain you feel, that's life. The confusion and fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there, something is better. And that something is worth fighting for."

And I'll end on the words of Jason Mraz... "Live high, live mighty, live righteously.."

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Not Me, Not Yet

I'm finally getting to that age where people I know are getting engaged. It makes me feel old, but at the same time, I feel like I'm too young for it. Here are some examples I've heard lately, starting with completely understandable to WHAT!?

Couple #1 J &W - J is 20 and W is 21. They have been dating since they were about 15. They both have decent paying job and are pretty much perfect for each other. They also plan to hold off the actually wedding for a little while until J is out of school in about 2 semesters and they get settled with their out of college lives. This one sound pretty logical to me, and I think I would be ready for engagement at that point too.

Couple #2 L & C- L is almost 21 and C is about 23/24. C was off fighting in Iraq practically out of high school and when he got back, he started dating L about 1.5-2 years ago. I also sort of understand this situation. C is older and after Iraq, you really understand that life is short so why wait.

Couple #3 K & W- Both are 20 and have been dating for a year and 7 months and got engaged after a year and few months. K used to work with me (recently quit) so I know she is not making enough money to support herself. Supposedly, they are madly in love, but you can also be madly in love and not be engaged

Couple #4- S & A- S is 19 and A is 18. They have only been dating for about 6 months and A is only a freshman in college, and their relationship is long distance. I have no comment for this one.

Now I might seem like a Scrooge in terms of love, but I'm really not. I just look at these relationships (besides maybe the first 2) and wonder why its so important to get engaged so fast. I have an amazing boyfriend who I love a lot and we have a great relationship, but I think that we would both agree that we are too young to be engage. I can't imagine myself in 6 months being engage, planning my wedding, when I can barely legally drink at my own wedding! If for some reason, my boyfriend was to go crazy for minute and ask me to marry him, I would say yes, but only on the terms that we would be engage for another 2 or 3 years before we got married. There are few more years of growing up that both him and I need. I want to be financially supporting myself, because I don't want to be living off Mom's and Dad's money when I'm about to get married.

I don't mean to offend anyone that got married young or fast. Many times, it does work, but just putting myself into those situations that's how I would feel.